Been marathoning through the series of late. David Tenant is a genius. Watching Ten die was very hard.
Just watched the movie version. Read the book a few years back as an undergrad at a rather conservative (some would say hyper conservative, except the hyper-conservatives who would call it liberal) Christian school.
I remember how much I wanted to escape the bubble I was in and to make a difference on the real world when I read it initially.
And I still want to do that. But what I want to do mostly is to change the bubble entirely… to pop it.
This insular culture we’ve got going on isn’t healthy.
We need to love our neighbors.
The Vatican City, I think. But there’s a couple other micro-countries, so I’m not 100% sure without cheating.
I want to answer.
In no particular order:
- Plant churches
- Help people learn that Jesus loves them
- Disciple people
- Take pictures
- Write poetry
- Write books
- Fight with swords
- Ride bicycles
- Be an awesome husband
- Be an awesome father
- Geek out about technology
- Own a coffee shop
- Build youth centers
- Sing and play music
- Fly airplanes
- Live in community
Now, to figure out how to do all those.
I could try to get a healthcare IT job in a city I’ve never considered and where I know one. It’s not even my field of study, but I have the skill set. I’d make good money.
I trained to be a professional counselor. And I could be pretty darn good at that.
But I’ve never been one to lack confidence. I could do well in any job to which I applied myself. The question is what I want to do; what will leave me fulfilled.
I could keep trying to get a job in my field, eventually finding one, paying dues and making little.
I would love to get a Ph.D., but I don’t know what in. I would love to teach, but I don’t know what.
But really, my heart is ministry. Not professional ministry, but vocational nonetheless. I want to plant churches where it is sorely, sorely needed. I want to help the hurting. I want to be the hands and feet. I want a “secular” job for now, (a) to make ends meet and (b) to plug into the community. Eventually, if the ministry can support me, great. If not, no worries.
And I want to write. God knows I want to write.
The truth is, I was never “called” to be a counselor, or anything other than a servant of God; I pursued my Master’s because I love being a student and because I love working with people and helping them. I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do. I went to college fully intending to become a missionary pilot. But what that entailed didn’t feel congruent with my heart’s desire for discipleship ministry.
There’s a part of me that wants to find a way to stay in Lynchburg until next summer, and then go with a friend of mine to plant a church in St. Louis, but that door hasn’t opened yet. Or maybe I haven’t felt around for the door knob enough.
I’m not looking for an easy way out, just the right direction to find where I should be.
Might be time to get a new laptop. I’d like some recommendations from my fellow creatives and computer geeks. If I get one, I want it to be lightweight and thin, no larger than 15 inches (13-14 is great), good battery life, and powerful enough to easily handle CS5 (will not be used for gaming, but will be used for photo/video/audio editing—thus discrete graphics a plus). Optical bay more or less optional—need to at least have an external one, but outside of installing new programs (Lightroom, Office), I rarely use it. SSD a big plus.
No fanboyism. I know a lot of creatives use Macbook Pros, and I’d be willing to consider, but I would have to be blown away to do so.
My current (but possibly dead) laptop was top-of-the line four years ago (2.4 GHz dual core, discrete graphics, tablet functionality, 4 GB ram, but only 2.5 hours battery life used conservatively). I had hoped it would last until this October/November so I could get a look at the Microsoft Surface Pro and its potential competitors, but that may not be an option.
1 Sonic Screwdriver
1 Sheet of Mind Paper